Breeve’s Journal

Still working hard!!!

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 13:40:08 -0500

A lot of big things going on here on my side and everyone will hear aout it all soon. I just want to update because I haven’t in a while. Also I want to let you know that God is NOT playing about taking care of you. No matter how it looks just keep pushing and praying and believing and there WILL be an end to the struggling period.

I know...

Sat, 8 Aug 2009 01:16:48 -0500

Man I know I should update this journal more often but Im trying to increase traffic to the site...Ill remember if there are more people coming! lol. So...Tell a friend

Feeling momentum...

Thu, 14 May 2009 23:41:06 -0500

Getting a lot of good legal stuff together for the impending takeover. Ill let you in on a little secret...I DO YOUTH MINISTRY! I live it, I breathe it, I talk it, and I walk it. I have dedicated my life for the betterment of other people as a direct order from God, and I have a great big soft spot for the youth. When you truly have a passion for something it comes out in whatever you do.

I’m working on something big and unstoppable. If you thought this was all about rap...you haven't been listening. And its NOT.

Im a do it yourselfer. Always have been. As long as I have the time I try to do things myself before I call in somebody else. Thats how I have learned so much about my own capabilities. My mom misses me living at her house because I fixed stuff, hooked up stuff, and put together...stuff. I dont have the money for a lawyer but I do have books and a great mind to understand them. I also have drive which is what separates me from your average person just talking about starting something. Im not saying that to prop myself up, Im saying that so that you know “there aint nothing to it but to do it” Stop thinking you cant do something because you don’t have the resources or man power. You CAN do it. the only thing stopping you is you.
Sometimes you have to start out on journey before you find out where you are going. This is faith my people. Its the water in the Kool-Aid of the God we serve.

If God has given you a dream, think about whatever it is and write it in your heart in permanent marker. Never let anyone erase it or change it. Stay strong in the dream. Your plans, however, should be written in pencil. When we get a dream we make all kinds of plans on how we think it should happen, who it should happen with, where, when, and what time. Its okay to have plans when you have a dream. As a matter of fact, its NECESSARY that you have a plan. But sometimes God will come in and make the dream happen in a way you never dreamed. The dream will never change. But sometimes the road we take to get there isn’t the one we saw on Map Quest.

“Write your dreams in permanent marker, write your plans in pencil” -BreevEazie “Drop” Freestyle Download HERE

Love!

Kids Gotta Eat Inc.

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 21:17:47 -0500

Tomorrow is Earth Day (and my brothers Birthday) Breathe all this good clean air and make sure you do something for the environment.

Im on the verge of some great things. Looking for grant writers. If you do that or know someone who does email me at the link right HERE I cant wait to unleash this on the South Suburbs of Chicago and beyond. I been working hard. I just want everyone to know that God will only take something you love to make room for something youll love more. Watch and see.

Also J Kwest and I are shooting a video for the first single from our collaboration CD “Batman & Batman”. the song is called “Flashlight (Ft. Ab)” and IT IS A BANGER!! We BreevEazie, J Kwest, Double Threat, Pure Music) want you to come out and support. Were shooting a live concert scene at the Merchandise Mart downtown and we need a crowd. Come out and have fun with us. J Kwest and I will be hanging out and having a good time making good videos for good music. God is working. Its dream time. The poorest man in the world isnt the man without a dime. Its the man without a dream. -Eazie

Making new moves

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 19:58:28 -0500

Gotta do better with updating the site. Thanks for the increased comments. Last time I blogged about losing my job. It has been a crazy time but God is still dope. All bills have been paid ON TIME! (Which sometimes doesnt happen when EVERYBODY is working lol) We have had more stuff thrown our way as well. My wifes engine went out then the alternator, then my brakes and a whole bunch of other stuff. In short we have incurred several thousand dollars in extra expenses with less income and still God is faithful. This will be a crazy testimony when it is finished.

After losing the last job I am now working on two things. My own youth organization Kids Gotta Eat Inc. and my internet company has a huge idea on the way that could provide for a lot of families in addition to my own. Its all a big risk but so is any God sized idea. This can only succeed if God puts His hand in this. Thats the territory Im in right now. Thats where we always should be. Yall pray for me and support me. All your dreams are a decision away. The poorest man in the world isnt the man without a penny. Its the one without a dream.

Recovering from surgery

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 17:44:56 -0600

Probably about a year and a half ago I injured myself hoopin’ with my Memphis kids. After over a year of misdiagnosis, guessing, and 5th opinions, I finally had surgery on my knee. Had some cartilage repaired and a bone spur removed. Before I got injured I had lost roughly 60lbs and was still going. Since then I havent been able to work out and gained it all back plus some. So as soon as Im able to go at it again, Im going hard as the hood Im from. lol. Gotta get this weight off so I can be around for that little one. Im already walking again and I get the wrap of tommorrow. AS soon as Im ready Im going to invite yall to drop some weight with me so be ready for that.

The past couple of weeks have been crazy. I lost my job and it kind of came out the blue. I also dont agree with the reason but what are you gonna do. You cant force people to believe in you. No matter what though I know God is ALWAYS gonna take care of me because He ALWAYS has. Good thing about it is that Im back focused on rap more than I was and Im more focused because I have to be for my family......I’ll let you know what happens next

On my way back to Memphis!

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 03:26:26 -0600

On my way back to the M Town in a few days to do a New Years concert for the great New Direction. Cant wait to see old homies and my lil dudes from the gym. I might be crazy but I miss those kids. they changed me for the better and I hope I did the same for them. Everybody is going to want to see the baby so I get to show off my lil girl. We are just gonna chill and catch up on old times. Cant wait. Good times.

Wow! I haven’t updated since

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 03:07:09 -0600

Alot has happened since then. My little girl is growing like crazy and trying to say words. My wife broke her knee in two places. So things have been really challenging for us lately. She cant put any pressure on it so I have been having to do EVERYTHING lately. Take her to work, Pick her up, Clean up, Take care of the baby, EVERYTHING! In the middle of this hard time though. Im happy though that through this hard time I haven’t felt sorry for us, frustrated/angry with God, or anything like that. I feel thankful still and its not forced or faked. It really is genuine. Im not bragging or trying to look like a SUPER Christian. Im just noticing my growth. And since you’re reading MY journal, THATS what I wanna write about. LOL. The one thing I have been feeling though is, TIRED. Its difficult not having enough time in a day to do what you NEED to do. ITs not like usual where I had the time but not the energy or the will. I really dont have the time. And what usually suffers is cleaning the house. And it drives the wifey crazy! I thank God for family because they have been a GREAT help. Helping with the driving, cleaning and the baby. THATS why we moved back to Chicago. I dont know how I would have done this in Memphis. God does what He does for a reason.

Through all the craziness my Grandmother died in November. That was pretty hard. I have had people die before that I was close to, but she is the one person that has passed that has always been there. I never knew a day without her until November. Im not an emotional dude. And I dont cry much but that one broke me down. But Im strong again. I have grieved and am getting used to like without her here on earth. She loved the Lord so I know Ill see her again. Until then Chubbs....I love you. The only thing I regret is that I had been back in Chicago for 6 months and hadn’t been to see her. And she never got to meet my daughter. I hated that but I learned a lesson from it. After that, its like Jay Z said on Reasonable Doubt. “This is the number one rule for your set. In order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets.”

Sigh...Chicago sports

Sat, 4 Oct 2008 11:01:21 -0500

I guess we should be used to it by now. Since the departure of his Airness it seems that Chicago sports have been infected with high hopes and low performance. We always tend to see the greatest and subsequently pay for it with years of the NOT greatest. The Bears do have a pretty decorated past but have been dismal post Super Bowl, did manage to put together the greatest football team to ever take the field. This is a fact. Everybody agrees. The ’85 Bears Super Bowl shuffled their way into the single greatest display of domination ever seen. 1 meaningless loss on the last game of the regular season and an easy Super Bowl win. We also had the services of the best RB ever in Walter “Sweetness” Payton. The problem is... 1 Super Bowl does not a dynasty make. Since then we have been subjected to our mantra. High hopes low performance.

Then the Bulls. Dominated the 90’s with Jordan, Pippen, Phil, and WHOEVER decided to join them. Best team ever, Best record ever, best player ever period. His departure was followed by sub 29 win seasons, plenty of free tickets, and teams led by the likes of Brent Barry, Jalen Rose, and Toni Kukoc. If you dont know whats wrong with that , I dont know whats wrong with you. Funny thing about the Bulls is everybody that stays turns horrible and everybody that leaves turns great. See Ron Artest, Elton Brand, Tyson Chandler, and SOOO many more. And just when yo think its over. Just when the Bulls are predicted to win the East, such as last year, they DONT make the playoffs just to remind you what city you’re in. But the Bulls will always sell out the seats, probably because of some psychological obligation we feel for receiving the benefits of the Jordan years.

Now baseball I dont know MUCH about but I do know this. I had high hopes for a Chicago World Series. But in typical Chicago Sports fashion High hopes breed low expectations. They both start off down 0-2. And since this is a best of 5 series its looking like more of the same. All Im saying is Chicago sports is in need of Pure Homage. Sox? cubs? Can we get some?

Adventures in people making (Part. 1)

Tue, 23 Sep 2008 03:39:52 -0500

Just me, my daughter and my Mac...which J Kwest has dubbed the Daddy Mac (His is the Mac Daddy) Mama said there’d be days like this. And so did my barber Jamar. Wise people who have raised kids. Still you hope for the best. Not so much. Im happy shes healthy and beautiful. I just wish she’d go to sleep like a regular person. Or at least stick to the system that wifey and I had going the first 2 weeks. My mans told me that system was going out the window....and it did. Had it down to I go to bed late (round 3am) and wifey only had to get up once. Right now we’re both up and its almost 4am. If you know me you know that I likes my sleep! When Im tired Ill go to sleep wherever I am. Inside, outside, wherever!! But I cant just go to sleep on her. At this age if shes awake...its because she needs something.....And Im Daddy. Supplier of all needs (except for the precious commodity of breast milks) I cant do that. Everything else I got it.

Either way I love this kid. I miss her when Im gone. Kiss her when Im home. I cant even act like I didnt know what I was signing up for before I decided to make a person. I hope you do! Love yall!

PS I got bored while waiting for her to go to sleep and started taking webcam pics at this computer to commemorate this wonderful evening. check em out in the PIC section.

She’s here!!

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 19:07:50 -0500

This will be a short post but rest assured I will be posting more about my new little one. She was born on Sept 9, 2008 at 4:32pm. 8lbs 12oz and 20in of pure beauty! No disrespect to YOUR baby....but my baby is the best! More to come!!

Close call

Thu, 4 Sep 2008 22:57:47 -0500

So I spent like 5 hours in the hospital thinking my daughter was coming...SUPER EXCITED!!! Then...nothing! I feel for my wife though. She is extra ready to be NOT pregnant man. And I feel her...so I hooked her up with the dopest diaper bag a fly young mama like herself could want. One of them designer joints. She deserves it no questions! I dont have much to say thats all thats been going on.

I did move into the new place last week. Its a blessing and God has definitely provided. I have AMAZING friends who came through and helped me get this stuff off the truck and stuck around to help us get situated. I pray everyone has friends like mine.

Are You ready?

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 00:44:40 -0500

It’s getting close to baby time! She is at 36 weeks now, its supposed to go 40 but the baby is considered full term at 37. The number one question people keep asking is “Are you ready?” Don’t I kinda have to be? I remember when having a baby would have been the worst thing that could possibly happen to me other than catching AIDS! I had some pregnancy scares in my wilding out days and I thought I was going to jump out of a building. Even contemplated abortion! Now this baby is the best thing that could possible happen excluding NOTHING!!

People treat you different when you get married. If people dont know Im married but I tell them I have a baby on the way, they get this priceless look on thier faces like....

“Should I buy you a shower gift or a baby mama sting gun with a bitter proof vest”

“Should I pray for a healthy baby or a miscarriage?”

Its like all of your teenage years people (who care about you) do everything they can to steer you away from sex. Get married and you are thoroughly encouraged to “bring me some grand babies.” And you’re like “Ma I been married 30 minutes!” It’s dope though.

I say all that to say this. The closest to the right way (which is God’s way) that you can do it the better it works out for you. You aint doing nobody a favor by living right but you! The reason I share this is not to say “Look at me, Im perfect!” because Im far from it. But I always give God my best and that has made the difference in my life. And I let you know that not just because, but because there is a lack of people sharing this stuff. So if you dont know somebody who gives God thier best everyday now you do! And now you know the benefits!

So to answer the question am I ready? (As if it matters) Yes I am. I became ready for anything the day I gave control to Him.

BeLove!

The Baby Shower

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 00:58:52 -0500

Ok so I went.....and I rocked the pink polo....and I loved it! It wasn’t hard at all. I really wasnt checking for the game playing and all that but in a marriage you make sacrifices. It was dope though. I was dumb tired from being on the road all day but it was great to see family and friends celebrate with us nad be happy for our first child.

PLUS WE GOT A BUNCH OF STUUUUUUUFFFFFF!!!
YEAH!!!
Like I said before. Less stuff for daddy to buy.
I aint even mad. I’d have another one if I could. Its amazing how much people support you when they feel like you are doing it the right way. Thats what I kept hearing all night. People saying its nice to see a young couple doing it the right way. No shacking up no baby mama/daddy married loving it and putting God first. This is not to down anybody who has done any of that other stuff. I’m just saying that tis is one of those instances where doing things God’s way really pays off...literally! And we aint even gonna talk about the wedding two years ago! Let’s just say 3 words
COLD. HARD. CASH!!!!
Ok Im done. Love yall!

Back from camp!

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 00:47:44 -0500

Dont let the date fool you I been back for about a week now but I have been busy if nothing else. The camp is in North Carolina, its called Windy Gap and it was one of the most amazing experiences I have ever had in youth ministry. It tested out several of my own youth ministry theories and passed the test with flying colors. One of those being that you can have FUN. Not a church version of fun but actual fun and still deliver the message of Christ and that it would not be diminished or watered down. Kids changed their lives and gave it to God and nothing happened that was more important than that. I met some new kids, got a new play daughter, and was inspired beyond belief. This will change Chicagoland forever!

Oh and nevermind my tight shirt in the pic. Community shirts never quite work out for the big man. Somehow 3 and 4 X’s are overlooked and deemed unnecessary though this is clearly not the case. Thats why God invented the Foot Locker 4 for $20. Lets hear it for big undershirts!!!

Naw but for real tho....remember the big man!